What to do?

I’m having an increasingly hard time deciding to stay in this country or not. I can’t sleep anymore. I wish this was easier.

Spring Break

Oh yeah, isn’t spring break supposed to be exciting?? Aren’t you supposed to party?

Well,  not me.

Let’s see… I’ve spent a week in Plymouth. Let me tell you… It’s my hometown. It’s stagnant! I’ve lived there for many, many years, but I can’t take being there for a week. It’s too much. Nothing moves, everything is boring.. And I mean, everything. And I’m going back this weekend. Lucky me! I’m okay with it though, I get to puppysit for my father. (Can’t wait to see those little cuties!)

One good thing about going back is that you can hear the birds in the morning! I love that. In the city, not so much I always miss hearing the birds.

I have so much work to do. I feel crappy because I haven’t had the time to do any digital work. I’ve been getting mail about updates, but I just don’t have the time! I wish I did. Digital art is such a huge passion of mine, I wish I could just lock myself in here with my tablet for years. That would be nice!

Love you guys! Gotta jet <3~

Dir en grey!

So here I am, freezing my butt off outside the avalon, early afternoon. It’s freezing cold and I’ve lost all feeling in my feet and legs, I’m suprised I was standing. 4-5 hours in the freezing cold wind is not fun, I’d do it ONLY for Dir en Grey. Only them. My friends and I were trying our hardest to stay warm… It only works for so long… So here we are, and all of a sudden we see Shinya come walking up the street. I’m in complete awe. My eyes nearly fell out of my head. Shinya is so beautiful! And we’re all trying to play it hush so the line in front doesn’t disturb them walking in. They’re so close near us, I nearly die. I was in awe when Kyo walked in too! He’s my height! I knew he was short, but not as short as me. I’m not alone in the world! Uggh, except I hated the scary fan girls that tried to bum rush them >:(!
So 6 PM rolls around and the start letting us in. I quickly bought a new shirt and dog tag and all of us made it to the stage. After about an hour, still shivering, but even happier now inside, the show starts! UGhh, out comes two really terrible bands. I didn’t do anything to hurt them.. I respect them for getting up there and trying atleast. To me though, it went on forever and I started falling asleep while standing. I couldn’t help it.. I was so tired already.

Dir en grey finally comes out! We all crowded to the front, I was pinned but still trying to fight to see. I’m so very short. But I was able to secure and fight for my spot! ONE person away from KYO! (Yes yes, he’s my favorite!) It was hard to try and keep that spot because so many others where pushing and crushing and going crazy to get it. BUT despite being so tiny, I KEPT IT! No one was getting my well earned spot. Leave the little blonde girl alone!! Hahah. I never knew I had so much strength or anything! I suprised myself. My reward? A pretty damn good view of Kyo. I could see Die, Kaoru, and Toshiya as well. I couldn’t see Shinya that often because of Kyo, but I saw him smile, so I was happy. Being so close, Kyo looked at me a few times! Lucky me! I’ll never wash my eyes again since we locked eye contact! Wash my eyes? Lmfao, why would I?? Lmfao. I’ll never forget him and his safety pin. Oh, and his “RAPE ME” bucket. That was pretty damn sweet!
So needless to say the show was amazing. They’re amazing! I’ve heard them live and seen them on DVD tours too. But my god, to hear them in person, talk about incredible. Kyo’s voice is the same recorded and live! Words escape me when I try to explain how spectacular the show was. The energy was astounding! Did I mention how sexy Kyo is in person? And how wonderfully hot Kaoru is in person too? I think I died.
Dir en grey is the only band on earth I TRULY care about, and for them to love us as fans and put on amazing show, I couldn’t ask for more. I would gladly wait next time outside in negative temps again. They’re the only band I truly support and feel for. I can’t describe it, but it’s something you care a great deal about. The music is amazing, and you just feel it and it becomes apart of you. Words once again escape me, maybe you’ll understand what I mean anyways.

My friend/roomate got one of Kaoru’s picks. We need to frame it. How would we take it to an artstore and show them a little item like that to frame? Think they would laugh?? I don’t care. It needs to be preserved.

Needless to say, I’m always looking foward to their next show. I can’t wait to go. One thing though, I’ll be wearing taller shoes. All I had were my little black and white creepers.

hahah. Things have been great this week! Other than being in pain. I was selected as a closed beta tester for Granado Espada, and so wasn’t Kira. We’re soo happy! Goood times man. Good times.

Holiday~ gone!

I was lucky to have a relaxing vacation! I feel a lot better.

Although, I do have some crazy (and annoying) finals to deal with coming up shortly. I have so much to do, so little time. Hmm, I wish there was just more hours to the day.. or night.. or both! Oh well.

I have to go tend to my battle wounds now, I’ve got bruises on my bruises! The cat got out and I have to go catch him. I’ve never run so fast in my life!

Have a good sleep loves. <3

Luffft!

I saw my dad off to Germany today. I can’t wait until he comes back home. I hope everything goes well, and he likes Berlin.

I hope I get to go one day too.

But I really want to go to London.

Anyways, I got FF12! Amazing.. AMAZING game. To me, one of the best FF games ever! The battle system is new and utterly fantastic! You can even control which ever character you want, I like to take lead as Fran half the time. She kicks teh bootay~

Oh, I’ve got a new layout in the making. I’ve gotta finish that up. Things are going to look very different soon! I needed a change anyways. I finally have a little time to do so, I’m happy.

Well I have to run off to do laundry, <3 you guys <3

yarg

My friend was talking alot today about Ragnarok Online.

Mind you, I was addicted to that game for for MANY years. I made a great bow stalker. I can’t play again! I’ll loose everything! Lmfao. My life, in general. That game is so addictive. I can’t play it again, and I’ll try my hardest not to! :< .. although I had a damn good time storming the castles.

Errg, gotta get that game out of my head. I really wish they had some Online Gaming addiction hospital, I'd go check myself in. Atleast a few years back I could've seriously used it.

Well, I'm off to delete games of this pc. Say bye bye to Ran, Hero, Silk Road, RO, and everything! Hahahahah, I'm FREE! <__>

Sorry guys, I’ve really lost it this time.

Blahhh~

This week has been crap. I had my midterms and I’m tired :< I hope everything is going well for everyone though.
I hope my friend e-mails me. I really want to catch up with her. Hmm.. What else? I got a new haircut :> I really like it.. Nice and choppy.

Saw 3 comes out this friday! I hope it will be goooood. Maybe it will be. I liked the previous two, but not enough gore in my opinion :

Well, I have to go now.. My cat, Rolly, is callin’. Gotta finish Mythology HW and Animation. I really want to go to sleep.. But I have this to do. Bahh. Oh well, I’ll manage like I always seem to do. Maybe this weekend I can get some more art done. I wish I could update more often, but I don’t have the energy to be so dedicated all the time. I think I might add a new section to my site though. :>

Bai <3

(Hope you’re doing well Emily~!)

Heyo

I finally got my blog up and going.. So I’ll be using this from now on.

Well, what has happened lately? JEFFREY WON PROJECT RUNWAY, that’s WHAT! I’m so happy for him. Absolutely estatic.

It’s midterm week at my college. It’s poopy. Nothin’ like cramming until 2 in the A.M. It’s not so bad I guess.. Today was my first day in months that I’ve been completely free. It’s a beautiful feeling! To be able to relax and draw, and just.. hang out. It’s great. I feel so refreshed! I already have a hefty animation project out of the way, so I had time to kill today. Feels soooo nice…

I wish there was more time to a day… and night. Hahah.

Hope you’re all doing well! Love you!